What a sad weekend...

sometimes it kinda hurt when you feel that someone ignore you. I understand that you are sick, and recovering but please dont use that as a reason for you to distance yourself from me. You said you love me, you said you missed me, but why you hurt me? i feel hurt when you said " Come on. I m still recovering + weekend is my day with my family. So jgnlah terasa..". Yes I am terasa okay, you are not you.. the one that love me.. why? am i did something very wrong or hurt you until you become like this? Seriously i dont understand this thing happenned.. we've already agreed that we still can communicate even if its weekend or holidays. But ur statement really poke to my heary and im speechless... i dunno what to say.. You the one i love the most doesnt care about me anymore.. why? i need the answer.. u think i didnt care for you when you were sick? you are very wrong.. i cant help myself from always thinking of you... actually i really want to be with you take care of you when you are sick. you just dont know how much i care for you and love you... and even worst i miss you.. but this is what i get..
sayang, kalau abg ada buat salah, im sorry from deepest point of my heart. because i really didnt mean it. please forgive me, as what i want is you, as before..

"You are the reason I could fly, because of you i dont have to wonder why... my baby you... "

Im sorry sayang, I just dunno what else to say except for this word, " i love you"

goodnite sayang.. abang sayanggg!!

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ENGLAND maybe out and Capello will Resign..

Capello could resign if England go out
Soccernet staff
June 21, 2010

The BBC is reporting that England coach Fabio Capello will resign if his team fail to make the second round of the World Cup.

- Forum: Is it ever right to boo? While publicly the FA is refusing to discuss the scenario of England not qualifying, it is believed that contingency plans are being formulated. Capello's contract was renegotiated three weeks ago and the FA removed a break clause from the four-year deal which would have minimised the compensation it needed to pay him were he to be sacked. However, on Sunday a source close to Capello told Soccernet: "Fabio will not resign. Never in his life has he walked away when the going gets tough. He suffered more and more pressure at Real Madrid, the supporters wanted him out, some of the board wanted him out, but he stayed on and you know what happened - he won the league." Adrian Bevington, managing director of Club England, told the BBC: "Fabio was given a contract until 2012 and nothing has changed in that respect. Our position was very clear when we dealt with this three or four weeks ago. Nothing has changed as far as we are concerned. All we are concentrating on is getting a win on Wednesday and trying to get through to the next round." Capello has two years of his $9 million-a-year contract remaining and the renegotiation removed a clause where there was a two-week window following the World Cup which allowed either party to walk away. However, the cash-strapped FA, which was heavily criticised for the situation it created which meant it had to pay Sven Goran Eriksson around $5 million when he left the post, is unlikely to be able to afford the $12 million it would cost to ditch Capello.

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BLAME IT ON THE RAIN or THE SUN AINT GONNA SHINE..

We called it weather flux.. Between sunny days and heavy thunderstorm. Seems like everything wasn't in order.
Its been a hard time to adopt to this flux. Seriously it came to a point that i gave up. Its like u having sinus and your nose is about to adapt with the cool weather and there you go the sun rise again... And there goes my sinus again. Its the same situation with what actually happened this week... Its just too sad and about to crash, the happy feelings come again.. And again sadness showing their face and again and again and again... There must be something need to be done. This weather flux need to be calmed or u need to cure ur nose sinus.. Hmm thats difficult..how?

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Antara mimpi, ilusi dan kenyataan

Suatu ketika dulu pernah terdetik di hati ini betapa kuinginkan kebahagiaan yang abadi dalam hidup aku. Aku hidupkan kembali segala yang telah lama terkubur dalam hatiku. Ku cuba siramkan benih2 itu agar dia kembali segar bersemarak dalam hati ini. Setelah sekian lama ianya mati dalam hati... Tiba-tiba ianya hidup dan kembali segar. Ku siram dan siram setiap hari agar ia sentiasa segar. Tapi bak pepatah melayu, lagi kau siram dan sekiranya terlebih air tanaman pun akan mati ini kan pula perasaan. Niatku cuma satu ingin menikmati hidup yang sempurna, dikasihi, dicintai dan dihargai. Tanpa kusedar perasaan yg kusirami itu buatkan ianya lemas dan terus layu... Ya allah.. Jgnlah kau matikan perasaan yang suci itu kerana itulah yang membuatkan aku terus bernafas...

Ku bangkitkan segala perasaan yang ada pada ku... Ku luahkan segala yang terbuku untuk ku mendapat semangat untuk aku terus bernafas sehingga suatu hari nanti aku dapat merasai apa yang orang lain kecapi.. Hidup ku semakin hari semakin ceria.. Dan tanpa ku menduga apa yang ku pernah alami dulu mendatangi aku.. Adakah aku tidak layak untuk disayangi, dicintai atau dibelai... Mengapa setiap kali cinta yang mendatangi aku diakhiri dengan sedih... "diakhiri"? Adakah tanda-tanda itu sudah timbul... Adakah aku lemas dalam perasaan yang aku sendiri inginkan setelah sekian lama aku tanam sedalam-dalamnya dan aku sendiri inginkannya kembali. Perasaan itu sudah lama tak kurasai dan sekarang sudah di depan mata. Apa harusku lakukan? Membiarkan apa yang berlaku terus berlaku agar perasaan itu kekal membara atau harus ku teruskan siraman agar ia akan padam...

20 tahun lalu perasaan yang sama aku lalui dan ianya memakan diri sendiri. Kini ianya muncul dan ianya memakan diriku lagi. Aku tak mau menangis lagi.. Aku tak mau rasa kehilangan lagi.. Aku tak mahu rasa bagaimana aku ditinggalkan lagi... Terlalu pedih aku lalui juga kerana aku sayang.. Sebab aku cinta...

Terlalu bahagia perasaan aku dikala aku dihargai... tapi kini ia semakin lama semakin jauh. Tetiba aku terdengar lagu AKU CINTA PADAMU" Mazlan Hamzah dan di nyanyi semula oleh Sheila majid. Dalam lagu itu terbaris satu rangkap.. " haruskah aku berikrar lagi untuk yang ke seribu kali...aku cinta padamu... Sungguh.. Aku cinta padamu... Sungguh... Mestikah ku ucapi dari mulut ku sendiri.. Aku cinta padamu.. Kasihhh..."

Apa lagi yang hendak ku buktikan... Apa lagi hendak ku curahkan... Kalau perasaan itu makin lama makin layu... Bagi aku dialah yang bakal mengakhiri perasaan cinta ku... Tiada lagi selepas ini... Bezanya cuma usia... 20 tahun lalu dan sekarang perasaannya sama..

Demi cinta demi sayang yang aku tagih, akan ku kuatkan keazaman, akan ku kuatkan semangat... Akan ku kuat perasaan agar api itu tak akan terpadam dalam hati ini...

Pilu.. Mengapakah kau sering menganggu ku. Rindu.. Mengapakah kau datang menghampiri... Hati yang suci murni telah hancur berderai, kini bagaikan... Debu-debu jalanan.. Tiada arah tujuan.. Tanpa tujuann... :(

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Wedding, relatives or ....

Just an updated diary of the day... Going to Malacca for wedding and met my long time unseen relatives. They've changed and so do I. To those never seen me for years said.. "gemuknya kau". And to those seen me last year saw me " wahh dah kurus apa rahsia?" thats the comment i wanted to hear as a motivated statement to make me really want to bring my body back in shapes.





Back in KL my "friend" really make me feels down. I dont know why but i think its an unfair situation that really makes me feels down. I wont stop nor allow but it seems i am not in control. Nevermind it seems the rights is beyond control and i will let it be even it s hurt.

Good night to all see you again next update..

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SNOOKER- Hobby, interest

Snooker, was first introduced to me back in 1987. That time Steve Davis, Jimmy White and a few others was the name that conquer the game. That was the first time I hold the snooker "cue". Not to mentioned how funny i look when the first try on cue ball. My friend always laugh at me, until when I have a sifu who teach me until i become a better player. Thats not the point here, what I want to share here is about the terms we used to use in this game. Its so funny sometime because the terms were a bit "censored". The terms like "tundun", "cipet", "yamsoi", "amkong" really funny and its already 1Malaysia. Hehehe Thats what we called life experienced that can't be bought by any values. It's in your heart and mind.. And it lasts forever..

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ARSENAL SIGNED CHAMAKH AT LAST

Marouane Chamakh is an Arsenal player.

The Moroccan striker has completed his move from Bordeaux to Emirates Stadium and becomes Arsène Wenger's first signing of the summer.

Arsenal will have a new strike force, RVP and MC upfront. This will give at least extra firepower as Arsenal will looking for a strong come back when the new season kickoff after the world cup in August..

Glory...Glory... GUNNERS..!!

http://www.arsenal.com/news/news-archive/tv-online-chamakh-s-1st-interview-in-full

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Malay food dilemma...

This morning when i woke up, i feel like eating my hometown all time favourite breakfast, its Mee Bandung. So I drove my car to Kota Damansara to the place that people recommend to me. At first i want to drive back to Muar for the breakfast. But come to think of it, not worth it to drive down for 2 1/2 hours just for breakfast. So I keep to my previous plan that to Kota Damansara.

As usual and as by GPS it took me around 20 minutes to reach to that area.. It really frustrated that when we reached there it was closed.. Damn there goes my breakfast. My sister in law said there another one in Damansara Perdana.. So alright make a turn and off to Damansara Perdana. Turn here and there looking for the so called restoran... Oppss we lost. Called a few of her friend and got the direction right... Once we reached there... Goshh... TUTUP??? Aduhh what la ... What i can see all malay restaurant closed ... On Sunday... and Public Holiday.. Greatt... I just tot of maybe on Sundays those working families would go out for breakfast outside.. But this malay restaurant owner also did the same thing..closed the shop and have breakfast with their families outside... Apa daa...

At last after a few rounds and my kids start to make noise by complaining "laparr.. Nak pegi mana ni" we ended to one "malay cuisine" restaurant in Mutiara Damansara. And look at the menu its already nasi campur for lunch. Look at the time its almost 12pm. What to do taught of having good breakfast but ended up with "nasi campur". Talked to myself "if i drove down to Muar just now could have get what i want".

This is the problem with malay restaurant.. Its not that they cant cook, they can but when it come to food business they cant expended it just because of their attitude of " nak bukak bukak, taknak tutup.." and when people complaint they started to jump..

Dilemma...

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CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FINAL - MADRID 2010

The clashed between the two giants of Europe. BAYERN MUNICH V INTER MILAN. Both chasing for treble cup this season. Who's going to win? On paper looks like Inter going to win with the "special ones" on board Inter Milan squad, i think in techtical wise INTER are going to win this... Who's going to win??

INTER??

BAYERN MUNICH?

ANTARA PEGANGAN AGAMA DAN BUDAYA

Tajuk di atas memang saya dah lama persoalkan. Hakikatnya dan pengajarannya ada terdapat dalam cerita dalam slot SERAM setiap hari Khamis TV3 @ 2130 malam. Memang orang tua- tua ada berkata biar mati anak jangan mati adat. Begitu taksub sekali mereka mengikut ajaran budaya. Tak tahu dimana sempadan antara budaya dan agama. Budaya dan agama mengajar kita untuk percaya adanya makhlus halus, dan dengan itu orang- orang dahulu mempelajari ilmu- ilmu untuk meminta pertolongan dan perlindungan dari makhluk yang sedemikian. Dari sini timbul nya saka, hantu raya yang menjaga dan mempertahankan keluarga yang membelanya. Kita terikat dengan budaya ini turun temurun sehingga ke zaman ini masih lagi ada kerana "penjaga" ini tak akan hilang dan akan dipaksa utk mewarisi saka dan makhluk halus ini. Agama telah mengatakan hanya Allah yang satu dan tiada lain tempat pertolongan yang patut diminta selain Nya.

Kita kadang terikut-ikut dengan budaya syirik ini. Sesuatu yang terjadi itu ada hikmahnya, dan jalan terbaik adalah meminta pertolongan dari Nya. Setiap penyakit ada ubatnya. Dalam zaman moden dan teknologi yang serba lengkap ni, perubatan moden juga maju dan ia selaras ajaran dan tamadun Islam bahawa ilmu perubatan boleh dipelajari dan ubat boleh dicipta dari kepakaran-kepakaran yang mempelajari ilmu perubatan yang berasaskan Al-Quran.

Berubatlah secara betul dan minta kepadaNya agar disembuhkan penyakit. Dengan izinnya insya allah sembuh. Bukannya berubat kononnya secara tradisional tapi menggunakan mentera memuja dan meminta pertolongan jin atau apa2 pun bentuk pemujaan. Semuanya itu budaya yang salah dan ianya syirik. Bercanggah dengan tuntutan ugama.

Saya mengganggap tuntutan budaya biarlah berpada2 dan janganlah terlalu mengikutkan dan pentingkan budaya hingga pegangan agama tergadai. Kita orang melayu khususnya penuh dengan adat dan budaya, dan tuntutan agama. Antara ugama dan budaya ada garis yang amat halus yang memisahkan dan itulah yang perlu kita selami agar jangan nanti kita menganggap ianya sebahagian dari agama tapi sebenarnya budaya yang tak sepatutnya kita ikut dan membolehkan kita jadi syirik.

SAMA-SAMA KITA RENUNG2KAN BERSAMA ANTARA BUDAYA DAN AGAMA..

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BLACKBERRY OR IS IT IPHONE?

Back in 2008 Apple launched their masterpiece in smart-phone technologies and they called it "I-PHONE". Since then the smart-phone market going crazy, with all other brand try to "imitate" the features and content not to say the overall outlook as well. That i won't comment because it's China, everything they dare and willing to do as long as benefit and profit matters. Among them are the Manufacturing from Canada RIM. They at first was very comfortable with the market segment they have especially in USA and Canada. until I-phone came into the market and everybody was in love with the interface and the design of the phone created by Steve Jobs.

Blackberry was stunned with the phenomena and they urged their R&D department to come out Blackberry that can play media. In 2 years blackberry introduced more than 5 models and Iphone still remains the same. People in Apple said that design will lasts at least another 3 years ahead. Blackbery even came out with BB-STORM to challenge Iphone but they failed because they tried really hard to fight in terms of design and interface without thinking of what consumer really wants in a smartphone. Simplicity and user friendly. At last Blackberry back to their knees and re-designed BOLD and they come out with 9700 aka BOLD 2. This is the best phone so far in the smartphone market but they cannot compare side by side with IPHONE as IPHONE are totally in the league of their own. No ones can even beat the secret of beauty of this superb phone (I-Phone).

Even if you study the market segment of this to model, definitely Blackberry control in terms of the market but Iphone are consider exclusive and to those who owned one i would say Congratulations as you owned the phone of the future at least until 2015.

If people come out the survey forms and ask me Blackberry or Iphone, i will defintely say IPHONE, Thank you.

MALAYSIA OH MALAYSIA.. THOMAS CUP DREAMS

We are playing at home and always known as "jaguh kampung". This is labelled as we used to win titles in our home ground. After the glorious win in Stadium Negara in 1992, we are almost nowhere in this competition. After one tournament to another the official's always sarcastically said that they have the best squad to win the title. But its always been empty handed when the tourney ends.

Back to today's match against the Japanese, they are actually underdogs compare to our "patriotics" players playing in front their own fans. But like my friends always said " kalau tengok sure kalah, kalau tak tengok confirmed menang". But i really scaptical with the ideas so went on and watched it live on tv.. There you go.. They LOST? what are they trying to do? Choon Han cant play and and Zakri duo also failed. Hafiz another loser with capital L.. Huh

My personal opinion, from rhw lineup of players, we dont have the strength to win the Cup as dreamed by te officials and the Govt. We dont have the quality players to beat others except for Datuk Lee Chong Wei. With the report from the newspaper thats said the world number 2, Lin Dan are at his best, i think we have to think twice before put too high hopes.. Look at China team.. The players are all world class unlike our Malaysian players. I dont condemned them but its the fact, look at the rankings.. They are almost not in the ranking lists of top 10's.

Thats the fact, the dream and the reality of our Thomas Cup 2010 team.
By the way I wish all the best in the remaining tougher matches after this.
Remember the words that create from the mouth of our beloved ex-PM Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohammad,

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

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CHELSEA- EPL Champions again.

Congratulations to The Blues as they snatched the title from Manchester United in a very stylish way. They were superb through out the season. The Manager Carlo Angelotti really make an impact in his first season with The Blues. They were the best in the Land and boosted by the best striker of the season Didier Drogba. Its the sweetest victory for others as well especially other clubs supporters like me, as the way Chelsea won the title and the Golden Boot in a very stylish way. They snatched it in a very last game. As the devils supporters are in a very arrogant mood, Chelsea maintain their consistency as the least team to lost in the season. Some people claimed it was a fix season by bookies, and if it was so, the drama was fantastic and even people didn't realized it. Only the results spoke by itself.

The seasons over and with all the good and bad memories. As for Arsenal they vow to come back with a more better performance next season... with Joe Cole and Shaun-Wright Philips on board and rumours of Camark to sign the contract soon Arsenal will be a better side next season.. Good bye and sayonara to BPL 09-10.

SEE YOU AGAIN NEXT SEASON... 2010-2011